I don't really know which title should I put for this, for I shouldn't be asking for an explanation nor should I be feeling disturbed or snapped, emotionally. However, I did and still am demanding those mentioned. However, I did and still being locked up in this confinement of guts-wrenching and heart-breaking feelings.


I wanted but I won't, asking about why would you prefer so for I know the question will most probably be left unanswered. More importantly, will it make any differences? It's true that the feeling that is conquering my heart is all negatives and the answer I predicted is because I'm an annoy-ment to you. However, even if the reply from you is exactly the same, I doubt it will put a "stop", all it does is just hurting myself...


...just like before, just like now.


The words are harmful and hurtful. I believe everyone will feel the same towards them. However, injury isn't always very painful until it is noticeable, especially small scratches like these, which will not even be felt without the adding of salt on it. Among all the censored wordings and sentences, only one hurts me the most, "she doesn't care a damn about you..."  It successfully slipped through the emotional barrier of mine and made me wonder the truthfulness of the sentence, for till now, you acted as if nothing have ever happened at all...


Perhaps I'm still the same fool as before, just more positive only cause I believe, and I still believe that we will be back together again, and this love story of us will have another new chapter, which will last till the rest of time. In this, the deeper me is saying, "You will do so only because of something else, you will not behave like that out of normal situation. The you I know, is not like this and will never be, no matter how you have changed." It is a belief, towards myself and you, something that will not be altered no matter what.


Regardless, those are self-issues, small issues, which will no longer disrupt my emotion once I lay the final word to this article. Answered or unanswered, it is not important, for this article is not meant to be questioning or demanding at all. However, I wrote this, with just one hope, hope that the words below could reach you and help you now and whenever you need it:


"Take care, both physically and mentally. Health in both is always the key to success. Stress could come in many forms, from different sources, now and future. However, it is never something that meant to torture or trouble someone, nothing ever is. Sufficient rest will do your physical and mental just fine.


Take a break sometimes, even for just a minutes or few, move around, look around, step out of your house, to the front yard... Who knows, you might see something you never notice. But for sure though, you will be both relaxed and charged up if you believe it could help.


You are not, and never will be alone. You still have your friends and your family. Talk to someone, share with others, and draws a smile at the very end of the conversation. Please believe that smile does help, in fact a lot in both physically and mentally.


Have faith, in yourself and your potential. Have faith, always...just like how others believe in you, just like your family, your friends, and your teachers. You will be fine, you will score for sure. Smile~ ^^ "


Thank you for giving me a chance to let all these out. Thank you for giving me a sense of concern and worry. Thank you. ^^


~The End~