Days have passed since I lifted up my spirit and confronted with the teachers. Days have passed, and the result was announced. It didn't change much; The post was still with him, and I was being placed firmly on the throne of a new post......a new post that created by teachers.
All type of unhappy faces flashed across my eyes when it ended up that way. It just made me wonder, question the right and wrong of my action. It......was inpolite to bear the thought to shoot someone down from the tree of the board, no need to mention carrying that intention out...
I guess, people around just marked a thought that I'm that kind of guy who refuses to admit my lost......and may be, may be I am what they think or I am not. Who knows and who can decide who's right or wrong......caused even the one involved didn't know how to lay out a statement about this.
Slowly, things started to settle down and the curtain started to fall. And the adding issue, started to shine and caught everyone's attention. Many of people go against it, and so, the war started to roam freely among us.
My head wished to cancel out all the added post. Actually, not only him. It's everyone's view, including mine...
I started my war caused I wanted to fix the whole thing and lend him a hand in everyway I can; It was the reason that I took up my pistol and started to shoot at that guy......caused I know, and I dare to say, his stay won't help at all and may be even ruin the whole thing, bringing it down when it was already in worst condition.
I know, when people hear this from me, all kind of opinions will come out and mostly......are aiming at me, critising me.
It's true...I'm not very good. And it's true...I'm not right. But who decides whether the whole thing is right or wrong? Teachers? Me? You? Or even the head? Using the love of mine towards prefectorial board, I fought my war and even if it didn't end out to be the way I wanted to, and he was still relaxing on his throne......I was glad that I was given a chance to fix the whole thing, given a chance to reset the whole thing before it reaches the no-return-state.
But now, my intention to help out my friend, who is the head cornered me in a tight spot. His first task was to cancel out all the new-added-post and mine happened to be one of the four.
In others' eyes, I wasn't hopeless. But those who know the reason why a new post was added for me, instead of me taking over that turd's post will have a clear mind of what's going to happen to me if his first task is able to be finalised...
The exit of my dream is right in front of me; Walking through it may cause my dream to crumble before it even started to be carried out...but it will surely help my head to finish his first task and set our influence on the right track again. If I decide to stand still in front of the exit, my post will most probably still with me, my dream will definately share a chance to be realised and I'll be able to fix the whole thing like the hope I was holding when I entered a confrontation with all those people...but......it goes against my wish to help out my head, goes against my aim of getting rid of that clown.
I wonder what others will do, or may be......it's clear what others will do. It's just they don't dare to show it to others...
For this far, I walked my way up here. And now, I was trapped caused of the source of my strenght and courage for this long struggle...I'm really ignorant, very ignorant about what should I do in this very moment...
All type of unhappy faces flashed across my eyes when it ended up that way. It just made me wonder, question the right and wrong of my action. It......was inpolite to bear the thought to shoot someone down from the tree of the board, no need to mention carrying that intention out...
I guess, people around just marked a thought that I'm that kind of guy who refuses to admit my lost......and may be, may be I am what they think or I am not. Who knows and who can decide who's right or wrong......caused even the one involved didn't know how to lay out a statement about this.
Slowly, things started to settle down and the curtain started to fall. And the adding issue, started to shine and caught everyone's attention. Many of people go against it, and so, the war started to roam freely among us.
My head wished to cancel out all the added post. Actually, not only him. It's everyone's view, including mine...
I started my war caused I wanted to fix the whole thing and lend him a hand in everyway I can; It was the reason that I took up my pistol and started to shoot at that guy......caused I know, and I dare to say, his stay won't help at all and may be even ruin the whole thing, bringing it down when it was already in worst condition.
I know, when people hear this from me, all kind of opinions will come out and mostly......are aiming at me, critising me.
It's true...I'm not very good. And it's true...I'm not right. But who decides whether the whole thing is right or wrong? Teachers? Me? You? Or even the head? Using the love of mine towards prefectorial board, I fought my war and even if it didn't end out to be the way I wanted to, and he was still relaxing on his throne......I was glad that I was given a chance to fix the whole thing, given a chance to reset the whole thing before it reaches the no-return-state.
But now, my intention to help out my friend, who is the head cornered me in a tight spot. His first task was to cancel out all the new-added-post and mine happened to be one of the four.
In others' eyes, I wasn't hopeless. But those who know the reason why a new post was added for me, instead of me taking over that turd's post will have a clear mind of what's going to happen to me if his first task is able to be finalised...
The exit of my dream is right in front of me; Walking through it may cause my dream to crumble before it even started to be carried out...but it will surely help my head to finish his first task and set our influence on the right track again. If I decide to stand still in front of the exit, my post will most probably still with me, my dream will definately share a chance to be realised and I'll be able to fix the whole thing like the hope I was holding when I entered a confrontation with all those people...but......it goes against my wish to help out my head, goes against my aim of getting rid of that clown.
I wonder what others will do, or may be......it's clear what others will do. It's just they don't dare to show it to others...
For this far, I walked my way up here. And now, I was trapped caused of the source of my strenght and courage for this long struggle...I'm really ignorant, very ignorant about what should I do in this very moment...
