A Gamble

Some may think I am standing up from the separation with you, while some may think I am still denying the fact that you have left me. Frankly, I am not certain as well.

Deep down, I am crying in hope of your return, wishing that these efforts of changing and understanding can eventually provide a better future of us together. But I wonder whether this hope will ever come true, for I really doubted it.

I really wish for you to know what I am doing and see my sincerity. Then again I am afraid of letting you know might either drive you away even further or disturb your current peace of mind.

You might ask me not to waste time and tell me how much we tend to be incompatible. Still...I believe the difference will add colours to our future. I never did understand what you've wanted in the past. I never did try to see things from your eyes previously. The continuous arguments between us just piled up the resentment between us and hurting the poor you. Looking back, there was really not much of a future. 

I don't know how to convince you that we will have a future this time. I don't know how to convince you that I have changed this time. Not to mention, asking for another opportunity to be your man this time. 

I understand that you and I have broken-up and it is a wise decision. But I sincerely wish that we could start a new relationship together again. 

It is a gamble. One which I won't even believe it, if I could win.