Saturday, 6 June 2009

Happy birthday...


In a blink of an eye and it’s already 6th of June, my 20th birthday.
Birthday, huh? What is the meaning of birthday? At least…what is the purpose of celebrating my birthday?
It’s true that I used to wish for others to celebrate with me, seeing others have their celebration with their friends and the “star” carries a huge and sweet smile on their face actually sores my heart. I am indeed envy them a lot.
I did quite a lot of stupid things and the stupidest thing I ever did is to remind others when my birthday is going to be. Maybe attention is very important to a little grass in the field back then or maybe popularity is something that the little stone on stony road wished for…
19 years have passed and I have celebrated a few of my birthdays. They aren’t something like what I saw but they are special to me. And the funny part is last year birthday celebration, I guess… A wish that didn’t come true but turned worst, a wish for friendship to last but ended faded in the flow of time.
I should be happy, shouldn’t I? After all, today is my birthday and I’m heading out for movie with my friends. Still…I just don’t seem to feel up to it, I mean I just couldn’t draw a smile on my face. At least…it’s better than a smile that turned upside down, right? Or perhaps I’m comforting myself?
In all these years, I picked up a lot of things but at the meantime, I lost much more. I made myself a clown, I hurt others’ feelings……
Usually, people won’t think about these stuffs on their birthday, do they? Or maybe they do and I just started to grow up, that’s why my action seems to be strange even to myself?
19 years have gone on the time-express and on the first day of my 20th, I’m no longer a person who’ll wish for any celebration for this day in future cause I am not a little grass or a little stone anymore.
“Sorry for those 19 years, I apologise to all of you.”
“The little grass isn’t dead but it has grows. It’s true it’s still a meaningless grass on the wide field, but it’ll be a fertile weed.”
“The stone can’t grow or move itself away. That’s the solid fact but it doesn’t mean that it can’t changed its’ thinking and be thankful for be able to be on the rocky road.”
“Happy birthday……”

1 comment:

Winniewenxin See said...

So.....sorry!! may be you will think i have forgot about your birthday......
I will tell the truth that i really forgot already......XD
Hehehe......so i hope u all the best...... belatad birthday........

My dearest friend --->
Happy Birthday!!