I'm feeling the curtain is falling over our story. I tried to hold on the rope as hard as I can, but somehow, doubt covered my sight, those words of yours just laid a shot to me from behind...
Am I that lousy? Or I was a fool from the very beginning till the very end? Tell me, girl...what makes you pushed me aside. Don't say those words, I know them, I heard them and for my own sake, I'm so bored with them as well..so, tell me something new, would you?
The smile on your face when "Kok Hou's no longer waiting for you" and "Kok Hou doesn't love you anymore"; I can't see them but I can imagine them...imagining them being displayed on your cute face.
At this time, may be you're thinking that things have settle down for both me and you. Or may be you think that I'm through with you. Think, all those are what you think and I don't know whether I want to burst your bubble and set up a cinema of my heart in front of you.
You're treating me bit like last time but I still can't really let go of the little love portion that I mixed up within me, and those smiles of yours when I was said making a thousand mile gap between us...
Sadness, ignorant, helpless, all those things that bothered me back then and now. I don't know what to do with them, should I see them as a gift from you? Should I treat them as my little pets? Or should I give them the position you own?
My own alarm is being sounded; I'm tired, too tired to get over everything all over again. I build up an imaginary castle inside my head and tried to find its perfect owner from time after time, and now..I will step on the break, raise a giant hammer, and smash the whole thing to the ground; The castle, the mind, the feeling...
And those presents that you gave me, I'll take them as a part of my life, as keepers of my memory about you...
And...I'm redirecting them onto something, I'll train myself on basketball and from now on, I'll aim for noone or nothing..but to be the star in a team.
Let the curtain falls then...let it falls with a sad actor sitting alone on the stage of life...
Am I that lousy? Or I was a fool from the very beginning till the very end? Tell me, girl...what makes you pushed me aside. Don't say those words, I know them, I heard them and for my own sake, I'm so bored with them as well..so, tell me something new, would you?
The smile on your face when "Kok Hou's no longer waiting for you" and "Kok Hou doesn't love you anymore"; I can't see them but I can imagine them...imagining them being displayed on your cute face.
At this time, may be you're thinking that things have settle down for both me and you. Or may be you think that I'm through with you. Think, all those are what you think and I don't know whether I want to burst your bubble and set up a cinema of my heart in front of you.
You're treating me bit like last time but I still can't really let go of the little love portion that I mixed up within me, and those smiles of yours when I was said making a thousand mile gap between us...
Sadness, ignorant, helpless, all those things that bothered me back then and now. I don't know what to do with them, should I see them as a gift from you? Should I treat them as my little pets? Or should I give them the position you own?
My own alarm is being sounded; I'm tired, too tired to get over everything all over again. I build up an imaginary castle inside my head and tried to find its perfect owner from time after time, and now..I will step on the break, raise a giant hammer, and smash the whole thing to the ground; The castle, the mind, the feeling...
And those presents that you gave me, I'll take them as a part of my life, as keepers of my memory about you...
And...I'm redirecting them onto something, I'll train myself on basketball and from now on, I'll aim for noone or nothing..but to be the star in a team.
Let the curtain falls then...let it falls with a sad actor sitting alone on the stage of life...
1 comment:
erm.. well.. i chatted with u juz now.. and act i wanted to chat with u for so long coz i wish we could have a chance to settle down this things..
but duno y.. i cant sort out anythg while chatting with u.. am i nervous? or im guilty coz i treat u like tat last time??
those days i din chat with u.. im really not used to it.. it's like sth wrong in my daily life.. like i've lost sth important..
and act.. i always say tat u doesn't suit me is juz a lie.. coz.. be4 tat was i cant really put down him but now i've put him down.. and i've think tat to start a new relationship with u.. but.. i dare not.. coz im a worry-head or mayb both of us are worry-head oso and i'm really losing confidence in love.. aihz~
bout elaine told u my smiling face when she said to me tat u're not waiting anymore.. it's a lie.. im glad tat u're not waiting.. but at the same time.. i feel sad.. i duno y.. it's like sth's getting into me.. but i duno wad it is..
guess there's some question marks popping out ur head now.. mayb u're getting confuse of y i say tat to u.. but i duno y oso.. but, to be honest, there's really alot of question marks poping out my head this few days.. and as u know.. im a worry-head.. XD
guess i better end this now.. and mayb i shud give u some time to cool down.. oh NO! shud be give us some time.. i guess~~ i dont mind u act like a stranger when u see me.. but i hope tat u can juz treat me like last time.. the way we used to be.. good frens.. or even.. duh! 4get bout tat.. im crapping.. =.=
btw, u can juz leace this comment aside.. i don want u to think so much.. ^^
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