I'm going to...

For days I have sat on the emotional rollercoaster, I really thought that it'll never stop and I'll never set foot on the solid ground again. I really did......

I openned my heart and mouth, letted every restrained words within me out. Each and every word came out from my mouth, each and every images that played inside my head, they acted like an amplifier; Reminding me how important one has becomes to me, reminding myself how stumbled I have become. I just couldn't do anything to help myself out of this, in sudden sweep of the falling star, I have become so helpless.

I guess such feeling isn't a stranger to you...

Actions and sights of others on me, things just make me look like a bad guy. I regconise those faces, happy faces of all of you. But now, you all are putting on the angry or distest mask towards me. Is it wrong..was it a mistake or a feeling that I shouldn't bear or shouldn't let out? Or may be...you all are like this all the time, it's just...I'm too dumb to realise it..

I wish to question, I wish to ask and how much I wish that I can get hold on the answer that I'm looking for, hoping for. However, I don't think I can write the question out on the white board and ask you all about it, I just couldn't do so; I just wouldn't want to treat you all in such way, especially you...

I did care whether a red light is shed on the path, but I don't care now. No matter what you do, no matter what you all do...I just won't step on the break padle and lift the handbreak. It's true, I won't no matter how much it'll make you all hate me, no matter how many of those faces I'll have to see.

I have enough of being botherred that badly and I'm tired of it as well. I promise to the falling curtain on earth, I will use those bothers that I got and channel them on what I like to do; I'll bring them along like my beg, whether I'm on the basketball court, in school or at home.

Let's take this as......something to save you inside my memory.